Thursday, March 4, 2010

Conversations with myself

I wonder if it's normal to have conversations with yourself? An entire conversation... where you talk to yourself in that back and forth way only a real conversation happens.

When there is a lot on my mind, I find myself doing this. It doesn't even have to be about something deep, just a way to process whatever thoughts are in my head. There's a commercial for NCIS where Abby the lab tech is moving her hands above her head and when someone else starts talking to her she replies, "shhhh... I'm rearranging my thoughts." That's sort of how I feel about talking myself through everything that's in my head right now. For the last few days my brains have been mashed or swirled together into a nasty goo which did not allow me to even put complete thoughts together. After a terrible nights sleep, today is surprisingly much better. My thoughts have been reorganized in a neat little package and placed on their appropriate shelves. I have a new, more positive outlook on things. I am ready to rock.

Ready to rock. Oh, but I'm still injured. I've been taking it easy, doing exactly what the good doctor told me to do. Slowly, I am feeling better. I know that this will be the hardest time. The time when my hip feels pretty ok, but not 100%. The time when I am itching to get back to training. Tonight I continue my take it easy plan. Maybe 20 minutes on the eliptical and 20 minutes on the bike. Maybe some light weights. NO running. NO stairs. Stop when it starts hurting. Oy, did I mention this sucks.


  1. I talk to myself all the time, and I answer myself too. Sometimes I'm the only one with the right answer :) Rock it!

  2. Get a belt and start aqua running. Only you can rely on you hun.
    Oh....and I talk to myself a lot! It happens on 3-7hr training days in solitude. You learn a lot about yourself :)

    Keep your chin up. You're doing a great job!

  3. Love, Love, LOVE, your posts. Thanks for sharing with us all. It is transparent and inspiring. You can DO this. It is the foundation being built for the Ironwoman. Make it solid. Hugs for you!